It has been a while again since posting on here.
I am much more consistent on my YouTube channel.
Here’s an update on some things.
I have been feeling rather burned out and flat, and I have been quite busy. I recently completed a 10-week introduction to writing fiction course. I have been playing Badminton weekly for around the same duration. I have been working 5 days a week, until this past week. I asked my girlfriend to Marry me 2 days ago (she said Yes).
I really want to be the best person I can be, so I have been doing a lot of thinking (as tends to be the case, given I am an INFJ personality type).
I keep f*cking up my sleep and going to bed far too late, given the state of my health and lack of energy. Instead of going to bed at around 11:30 – 00:00 (currently), I need to get settled down by around 10pm. It really need not be so complicated, but I make it so. That really is the first thing that needs to change if I want to feel better (and less like The Walking Dead).
I am due to go back to an employer to help out for a further couple of months, as another employee has handed their notice in. This will be my second return since originally leaving in January. This gives me a bit of time, but I do worry that I will always remain stuck like this. I have noticed that for INFJs (and HSPs), this is common – they struggle to hold down a job, because their minds desire so much more than an ordinary life. Another I have spoken to has had over 15 jobs in 10 years. I’m not too far off that…
I have been looking into the Myers-Briggs and Enneagram things a lot. I’m not sure which personality test is more accurate, but both are eerily good at describing me (I’m a Type 4w5 if you understand this stuff).
I have also recently ordered some Water Kefir grains, which were recommended to me by a friend who recovered from long-term chronic fatigue issues. Water Kefir is a fermented drink that should hopefully increase my ‘good bacteria’ as my digestion could be much better than it is. If this does help, I will be sure to talk about it down the line. Digestion is obviously very important in health and releasing toxins. It can feel impossible to be content and happy when your body isn’t in good shape.
I have been meaning to write the rest of my book (which will be called ‘My Highly Sensitive World’) but I have honestly not felt motivated or inspired to do so in some time.
Once I get my sleep pattern on track, and can live with the uncertainty of my future, I imagine my creative side will be re-awakened.
I am going to read some books myself, so I can get back into reading things that aren’t just self-help books on Anxiety/Depression/Myers-Briggs.
A few on my list are:
- Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman
- Looking for Alaska by John Green
- Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu (I suppose this is a bit self-helpy)
- The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett
- The Couple Next Door by Shari Lapena
- Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut
- The Phantom Toolbooth by Norton Juster
- Beneath a Scarlet Sky by Mark Sullivan
A few that I have recently enjoyed are:
- The Introvert’s Way by Sophia Dembling
- The Enneagram: Pathways to Happiness by Veronica Croft
- Life’s Golden Ticket by Brendon Burchard
I hope you are doing okay.
If you haven’t seen my YouTube videos in a while, here is one I recently filmed outside: